I want to tell you about my boyfriend. Dave and I just moved in together. He doesn't believe in Valentine's Day. Thinks it's romantic rubbish. Which is probably fair enough. I reckon every chance you get to tell someone you love them you need to grab with both hands. Never miss a moment. I told him this in the weeks leading up to Valentine's Day and in the morning I gave him a T-Shirt with the chemical formula for caffeine printed on it. (He's a science computer geek with a fixation on making and drinking only the very best coffee. I give him heaps about being a coffee snob and buy instant coffee just to annoy him) He loved the T-Shirt and the card I found that also referenced coffee. Something about keeping me up all night. Anyway it was a lovely way to start the day and he went off to work and I went off to be domestic and do the weekly shopping.
I'm still recovering from surgery so I had a late afternoon nap. I was woken by Dave as he walked in the door with a beautiful bunch of daisies and gerberas. Now I know he thinks buying flowers is a waste of money so I am immediately blown away by the fact that he has heard me when I told him I love being bought flowers. He heard me and loved me enough to buy something he thinks is a waste. Oh my... But then he reaches in his bag and gives me another gift. Jewellery. Earrings. Expensive (trust me I know these things).
Just as I am practically beside myself with 'loved upness' he pulls out A Pokémon coffee cup because he knows I love Pokémon Go and because he knows I need something for my instant coffee in the morning.
I'm sorry if it sounds like I'm bragging. I'm honestly not. I just needed to share with someone in a space Dave can't see how proud I am of this wonderful man who has decided to love with all that he has in spite of his antipathy towards Valentine's Day. And I want you to know that loving someone is the best most brilliant thing anyone can do. Neither of us is perfect. We are so very different. But we love each other and that is where joy lives. If you had known me four years ago when I first came out, you would know I could never have imagined that it would be possible to share my life with another man. Love has found me and I am overflowing with gratitude.
Thank you for giving me a space to share this. I love this space and all the precious people in it. Yes you. You are lovable. You deserve love. Love is waiting for all of us. Hugs.